Personal Development
Back to Blogging!
Mar/18/08 21:03
Well, I'm back! I have to admit that I have not
worked out since my last entry. It's been a week, I
know! That last workout fried me, and on Tuesday, I
found this documentary that has changed my whole
outlook. Here's the documentary:
POSSESSED from Martin Hampton on Vimeo.
I watched that video and realized that if it wasn't for Banu cleaning up after me, I could be in this documentary. There are a few areas of the house that Banu doesn't touch. This is what it looks like when I'm left to my own devices:
That's my office. I work from home, most of the time.
Another view of my desk.
The nice bookshelf Banu got me for my birthday last year.
The basement
My nice collection of boxes. Empty boxes.
My cable organization method.
My nice workbench in the garage. "Everything looks stacked up, at least." Yeah, that was Banu.
And finally, one more shot of my cable organization method.
As you can see, I have a bit of a problem. And the main reason it's not worse is because I live with a (mostly) patient type-a personality wife who does a fantastic job of cleaning up after me. There are certain areas, however, that she won't touch, and those are the areas I've documented here.
On the same day I took these pictures, I called a therapist who specializes in OCD (I have other symptoms that are on the OC spectrum) and set up an appointment with her. I also purchased this book: Buried in Treasures: Help for Compulsive Acquiring, Saving, and Hoarding
.
I can hear some of you saying, "Don't you think you might be overreacting?" That's a fair question, but no, I'm not. If you talk to anyone who has known me for a long time, they'll tell you I've had a problem with clutter since I was about ten years old. I have also had a problem with some other OC spectrum problems, but I don't really want to go into that here.
"Why are you sharing all this stuff? It's kind of personal..." That's true, too. I am sharing it because I am excited that I finally have a string tying a lot of my personal frustrations and obstacles together. I feel empowered by the idea that I can finally understand what's going on in my brain and do something about it!
I'll keep you posted here about my progress and about what I learn.
I have already made some progress. I'll tell you more about it in tomorrow's blog!
P.S. I'll also be getting back to working out starting tomorrow!
POSSESSED from Martin Hampton on Vimeo.
I watched that video and realized that if it wasn't for Banu cleaning up after me, I could be in this documentary. There are a few areas of the house that Banu doesn't touch. This is what it looks like when I'm left to my own devices:
That's my office. I work from home, most of the time.
Another view of my desk.
The nice bookshelf Banu got me for my birthday last year.
The basement
My nice collection of boxes. Empty boxes.
My cable organization method.
My nice workbench in the garage. "Everything looks stacked up, at least." Yeah, that was Banu.
And finally, one more shot of my cable organization method.
As you can see, I have a bit of a problem. And the main reason it's not worse is because I live with a (mostly) patient type-a personality wife who does a fantastic job of cleaning up after me. There are certain areas, however, that she won't touch, and those are the areas I've documented here.
On the same day I took these pictures, I called a therapist who specializes in OCD (I have other symptoms that are on the OC spectrum) and set up an appointment with her. I also purchased this book: Buried in Treasures: Help for Compulsive Acquiring, Saving, and Hoarding
.
I can hear some of you saying, "Don't you think you might be overreacting?" That's a fair question, but no, I'm not. If you talk to anyone who has known me for a long time, they'll tell you I've had a problem with clutter since I was about ten years old. I have also had a problem with some other OC spectrum problems, but I don't really want to go into that here.
"Why are you sharing all this stuff? It's kind of personal..." That's true, too. I am sharing it because I am excited that I finally have a string tying a lot of my personal frustrations and obstacles together. I feel empowered by the idea that I can finally understand what's going on in my brain and do something about it!
I'll keep you posted here about my progress and about what I learn.
I have already made some progress. I'll tell you more about it in tomorrow's blog!
P.S. I'll also be getting back to working out starting tomorrow!
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Traveling to Borgata
Sep/16/07 12:47
Off to Borgata to video more segments for the
upcoming Full Tilt Poker University. FTPU will be a
great source of poker instruction from the stable of
Full Tilt Poker pros. Videotaping, and later editing,
the videos has already helped my poker game. I look
forward to really gaining a grasp of poker by getting
some hands-on instruction from pros.
I felt a little off-kilter at the beginning of this trip because my wife, Banu, is out of town, so she couldn't see me off at the airport. I like the comfort that comes from little rituals like that. She's visiting an old friend in Vegas and took Sapphira with her, so I've been alone for the last couple of days. When I'm alone, my anxieties and insecurities really assault me and work their way to the surface. I hyper-overstimulate my senses by playing poker, reading articles and listening to very loud music simultaneously, all in an effort to shut out this looming sense of things just not being quite right with me. Read More...
I felt a little off-kilter at the beginning of this trip because my wife, Banu, is out of town, so she couldn't see me off at the airport. I like the comfort that comes from little rituals like that. She's visiting an old friend in Vegas and took Sapphira with her, so I've been alone for the last couple of days. When I'm alone, my anxieties and insecurities really assault me and work their way to the surface. I hyper-overstimulate my senses by playing poker, reading articles and listening to very loud music simultaneously, all in an effort to shut out this looming sense of things just not being quite right with me. Read More...
Signs you've been kettlebelling for awhile
Sep/11/07 21:13
If you don't know what a kettlebell is, click on the
ad on the right. It will take you to the premier
website for learning what kettlebells are and how to
use them to get your youth back.
1. Your original kettlebell has asexually reproduced and now you have a whole herd of kettlebells, large and small. You may even have a few inferior kettlebells in the mix (i.e. non-RKC) that showed up from inbreeding amongst your kettlebells.
2. You try to wipe the tears from your daughter's face, but you just make her cry harder because your kettlebell calluses scratch her face.
3. You now understand why they're called "dumb" bells.
4. Your wife complains about the living room looking like "a freaking boxing gym."
5. You now realize "swinging The Beast" doesn't have anything to do with your mother-in-law.
6. Going "bottoms-up" isn't as fun as when you were in college.
7. The kids at the park all know you.
8. Your kitchen timer is permanently set to 37 seconds.
9. Your son doesn't want to arm wrestle anymore.
10. Your wife actually is actually interested in sex again because you no longer look like a garbage bag filled with oatmeal.
1. Your original kettlebell has asexually reproduced and now you have a whole herd of kettlebells, large and small. You may even have a few inferior kettlebells in the mix (i.e. non-RKC) that showed up from inbreeding amongst your kettlebells.
2. You try to wipe the tears from your daughter's face, but you just make her cry harder because your kettlebell calluses scratch her face.
3. You now understand why they're called "dumb" bells.
4. Your wife complains about the living room looking like "a freaking boxing gym."
5. You now realize "swinging The Beast" doesn't have anything to do with your mother-in-law.
6. Going "bottoms-up" isn't as fun as when you were in college.
7. The kids at the park all know you.
8. Your kitchen timer is permanently set to 37 seconds.
9. Your son doesn't want to arm wrestle anymore.
10. Your wife actually is actually interested in sex again because you no longer look like a garbage bag filled with oatmeal.